Wednesday, 7 November 2007

I've lost my baby

Well, hi,hi, hi,,,to my dearest blog. So long I don't have the mood to open it and write new things about me. In my last blog post...i wrote there that I am happy coz I got to know that I'm pregnant but unfortunately 1 week after Raya...i've lost my baby. On 19t of Oct 2007, morning when i was getting ready to take my bath,,, I saw blood in my toilet bowl after finished my wee wee. I was reall y scared and didn't know what to do just staring at the blood and wish it was just a dream. I was scared and just sit on the toilet bowl, didn't know what to do. I pray to God, pls I don't want anything bad happen to my baby. My stomach felt so painful at that time. Oh God, I don't know how to tell my husband about it...I cried in the toilet until I heard my husband knocked on the toilet door,,, asking me why I took so long in the toilet and there's no sound from inside. He kept on knocking on the door and asked me if everything's ok. I open the door with my eyes full of tears,,,I hugged him. I don't have the guts to tell him what was happening in the toilet. I just kept on crying and then told him that i'm bleeding and i'm scared like hell.
He tried to consoled me and he kept on saying 'yang, jgn lah jd apa2 yang'. Then he asked me to prepare my bag and he will bring me to the clinic for check up. The doctor scan my tummy and she said the baby cannot be detected so she forwrd me to the hospital for thorough check up. At the hospital I was in the emergency room and the doctor scanned again my tummy and did the endoscope scanned from below. He still can't locate my baby...he told me that might be bcoz my baby just developed estimate 1 mth old so it might have gone out when I bled this morning. I held my husband hand and cried...so sad. I was admitted for 3 days in the hospital for thorough checked up and to cfm whether i was miscarriaged or pregnant luar rahim. I did the blood test but the doctor didn't do anything at the moment. On the 3rd day we got the result and it was confirmed that i've lost my baby and the doctor said there's no need for me to do the D & C...I felt so sad and numb. What to do, takda rezeki for us this time. Hopefully, God will give us another chance for us to be a parents....

5 comments:

Faizal Rahman said...

tabahkan hati ... doa byk2 ... insyaAllah ada rezeki nnt tu ...

Anonymous said...

hey there .... sorry to hear about your unborn baby. hope you're feeling better now. insyaAllah, ader rezeki lagi tu. Caiiyoookkk..

ladyred said...

Thanks for your concern, appreciate it very much. Anyway, I will not give up trying for the 2nd one. But at the moment, have to pantang for 1 month. Hopefully, next time I will be more careful and alert when i'm pregnant.

shafarina said...

dear dahlia,

its been 7 years since i last carried someone in my stomach.

and this time around is really a tough one.

2 pap smear tests, bleeding & admitted for 2 days (luckily doc gave me dexa injection), more dexa & proluton injections, mmg muka familiar kat hospital tu.

alhamdulillah, masih bertahan lagi.

and for you, i fahammm sangat rasanya masa bleeding tu. tapi mesti ada hikmah kan, and for sure for 2nd pregnancy nanti u dah ada pengalaman.

selamat berpantang ye! just take ur folic acid x kiralah pregnant ke tidak.

ladyred said...

Thanks Wan for your concerned and advise. I'll bear it in my mind and heart. Actually, I'm scared to be pregnant again but I know I have to face it coz i want my zuriat too. I'm scared that I might lost the baby for the 2nd time and I don't want to see my hubby hoping and then got frustrated again. Hopefully, Allah can give me strength and a good health if i'm pregnant again in the future

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