Annual Dinner

I'm so excited coz tomorrow night will be our company's annual dinner. This year theme is Black & Gold. Well,,today after work, me and my hubby will do our last minute shopping. I'm looking for and evening dress, shoes and shawl tonite and hope I have enough time to shop. Everybody must look beautiful and glamour tomorrow nite coz there will be prizes waiting for Best Costume, Best blah blah blah,,,so many best.... and the grand prize, cash will be given for 1st, 2nd and 3rd place.....so syokkkkkkkkk.

To My Dearest Hubby

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

What I Love About You....

I love the way you look at me,

Your eyes so bright and shiny.

I love the way you kiss me,

Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say, "I Love You,"

And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are mine.

I've lost my baby

Well, hi,hi, hi,,,to my dearest blog. So long I don't have the mood to open it and write new things about me. In my last blog post...i wrote there that I am happy coz I got to know that I'm pregnant but unfortunately 1 week after Raya...i've lost my baby. On 19t of Oct 2007, morning when i was getting ready to take my bath,,, I saw blood in my toilet bowl after finished my wee wee. I was reall y scared and didn't know what to do just staring at the blood and wish it was just a dream. I was scared and just sit on the toilet bowl, didn't know what to do. I pray to God, pls I don't want anything bad happen to my baby. My stomach felt so painful at that time. Oh God, I don't know how to tell my husband about it...I cried in the toilet until I heard my husband knocked on the toilet door,,, asking me why I took so long in the toilet and there's no sound from inside. He kept on knocking on the door and asked me if everything's ok. I open the door with my eyes full of tears,,,I hugged him. I don't have the guts to tell him what was happening in the toilet. I just kept on crying and then told him that i'm bleeding and i'm scared like hell.
He tried to consoled me and he kept on saying 'yang, jgn lah jd apa2 yang'. Then he asked me to prepare my bag and he will bring me to the clinic for check up. The doctor scan my tummy and she said the baby cannot be detected so she forwrd me to the hospital for thorough check up. At the hospital I was in the emergency room and the doctor scanned again my tummy and did the endoscope scanned from below. He still can't locate my baby...he told me that might be bcoz my baby just developed estimate 1 mth old so it might have gone out when I bled this morning. I held my husband hand and cried...so sad. I was admitted for 3 days in the hospital for thorough checked up and to cfm whether i was miscarriaged or pregnant luar rahim. I did the blood test but the doctor didn't do anything at the moment. On the 3rd day we got the result and it was confirmed that i've lost my baby and the doctor said there's no need for me to do the D & C...I felt so sad and numb. What to do, takda rezeki for us this time. Hopefully, God will give us another chance for us to be a parents....