Annual Dinner

I'm so excited coz tomorrow night will be our company's annual dinner. This year theme is Black & Gold. Well,,today after work, me and my hubby will do our last minute shopping. I'm looking for and evening dress, shoes and shawl tonite and hope I have enough time to shop. Everybody must look beautiful and glamour tomorrow nite coz there will be prizes waiting for Best Costume, Best blah blah blah,,,so many best.... and the grand prize, cash will be given for 1st, 2nd and 3rd place.....so syokkkkkkkkk.

To My Dearest Hubby

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

What I Love About You....

I love the way you look at me,

Your eyes so bright and shiny.

I love the way you kiss me,

Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say, "I Love You,"

And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are mine.

I've lost my baby

Well, hi,hi, hi,,,to my dearest blog. So long I don't have the mood to open it and write new things about me. In my last blog post...i wrote there that I am happy coz I got to know that I'm pregnant but unfortunately 1 week after Raya...i've lost my baby. On 19t of Oct 2007, morning when i was getting ready to take my bath,,, I saw blood in my toilet bowl after finished my wee wee. I was reall y scared and didn't know what to do just staring at the blood and wish it was just a dream. I was scared and just sit on the toilet bowl, didn't know what to do. I pray to God, pls I don't want anything bad happen to my baby. My stomach felt so painful at that time. Oh God, I don't know how to tell my husband about it...I cried in the toilet until I heard my husband knocked on the toilet door,,, asking me why I took so long in the toilet and there's no sound from inside. He kept on knocking on the door and asked me if everything's ok. I open the door with my eyes full of tears,,,I hugged him. I don't have the guts to tell him what was happening in the toilet. I just kept on crying and then told him that i'm bleeding and i'm scared like hell.
He tried to consoled me and he kept on saying 'yang, jgn lah jd apa2 yang'. Then he asked me to prepare my bag and he will bring me to the clinic for check up. The doctor scan my tummy and she said the baby cannot be detected so she forwrd me to the hospital for thorough check up. At the hospital I was in the emergency room and the doctor scanned again my tummy and did the endoscope scanned from below. He still can't locate my baby...he told me that might be bcoz my baby just developed estimate 1 mth old so it might have gone out when I bled this morning. I held my husband hand and cried...so sad. I was admitted for 3 days in the hospital for thorough checked up and to cfm whether i was miscarriaged or pregnant luar rahim. I did the blood test but the doctor didn't do anything at the moment. On the 3rd day we got the result and it was confirmed that i've lost my baby and the doctor said there's no need for me to do the D & C...I felt so sad and numb. What to do, takda rezeki for us this time. Hopefully, God will give us another chance for us to be a parents....

Happiness and thrilled

Last week, I really felt tired, sleepy and moody, I thought my period is coming that's why my mood totally changed. My period day was already over the due date. There's one kind of feelings when I thought of it. Was I preg.....t? Gosh, that word is so ironic!!!! I told my hubby about my problem and with confident he told me, you're pregnant sayang. But I still not satisfied with his answer so we went to the guardian pharmacy and bought the pregnancy test but I told my hubby that I will checked it in the morning. He looked at me with a big smile and said 'sayang, no need the test coz I'm very sure u're pregnant, trust me'..but my answer to him was, 'I'll wait for tomorrow morning abang, at least there's a proof on that whether I'm pregnant or not',,,he just smiled at me.

Well guess what!!!! that morning in the toilet, before I took my bath, I did the test and its POSITIVE,,,,God I'm pregnant and I'm going to be a mother. My feelings at that time was happy, scared, thrilled and happy. I told my hubby about the results and he straight away said,' I told u so', and he hugged and kissed me with joy and happiness, We're going to be a mama and papa...so syokkkk. I cannot hide the news, I told my family, colleagues and my close friends about it and they're happy for us.

Now, I have to take good care of my health, food and everything that related to pregnancies for my baby, my first child. I pray to ALLAh so that both me and the baby is ok throughout the 9 mths of the pregnancies. Insyaallah...

Anguished

These past few weeks, my health is not that excellent like before. I was on MC mostly every month since I joined this company. I don't know why this things happen and I 'm scared that it will effect my job performance. There's so many things happen to me for the past 3 mth such as I was bz planning for my big day until my BP increased coz of the hipertension, my mum's sick and migrain attacked me often. Yesterday I was on MC again and when I told the doctor my problem, she said what to do you're sick. I pray to god all the time so that God can take away the disease far away from me. I want to be a healthy person without any problem thinking about my bad health. Health is so important to me coz I am still young and I don't want, by the time I reach 40 or 50, I am not in a good condition to do anything.

Today is my 2nd day fasting and I hope that I can finish it without any disturbances from my illness. Hopefully everything will be ok and I can be a friendly, relax and workoholic girl back again.

Ramadhan is coming 13/9/07

Ramadhan is the ninth month in the Islamic calendar, believed by Muslims to be the holiest month of the entire year. Its reverence signifies the revelation of the Holy Qur'an to Prophet Muhammad. During this month, Muslims throughout the world fast from dawn until dusk. The word Ramadhan comes from the Arabic root word ramida or ar-ramad, which means 'intense heat and dryness'. It is a fitting name for the month in which Muslims endure the heat of hunger and thirst.

Ramadhan begins with the sighting of the new moon and ends when the first crescent of the next new moon rises, declaring the start of a new month called Shawwal. The first day of Shawwal is marked by a joyous celebration called Eid ul-Fitr, meaning 'Festival of Breaking Fast'. This festival starts off with special congregational prayers in mosques or Islamic centers, followed by hearty feasts and socializing.


1. Fasting. The act of abstaining from food, drink and sexual intercourse is so prevalent during the month that people often misunderstand Ramadhan to mean fasting. Actually, the Arabic word for fasting is sawm. Fasting begins with suhoor, which is a light meal or snack at dawn, and ends with iftar or breaking fast, a full meal just after sunset.
Fasting is two-faceted, involving the physical and spiritual aspects of Islam. Physically, Muslims abstain from eating, drinking, smoking or having any form of sexual contact from sunrise until sunset. Spiritually, Muslims refrain from negative habits, such as gossipping, cursing, lying and badmouthing others. Additionally, Muslims avoid obscene sights and sounds.
Fasting strips away the distraction of worldly pleasures and enables Muslims to concentrate on inner reflection and heightened purity of thought and action. Ramadhan is the month to pray, perform good deeds and pass time with family and friends. It is also a time to remember the poor and how they suffer to get even one meal per day. In fact, at the end of Ramadhan, Muslims are encouraged to give fitra, a sufficient amount of charity to feed one person for a day.
Muslims who find fasting a problem are not obliged to perform the one-month fast during Ramadhan. The elderly, very young children and sickly people are exempted from fasting. Those who have a temporary condition that prevents them from fasting are required to make up for any missed days after Ramadhan. If their condition is permanent or extended for a long period of time, they can provide charity to feed a needy person for each day missed.

2. Laylat al-Qadr. Also known as the Night of (Will) Destiny, this is the holiest night during Ramadhan. It is the night when the Holy Qur'an was first revealed by God to Prophet Muhammad through the angel Gabriel. Although the exact night remains a mystery, it is believed to be one of the last ten nights of Ramadhan, particularly the odd-numbered nights between the 21st and the 29th.
Muslims are encouraged to seek this night through ardent prayer. The Holy Qur'an has provided that prayers on this single night are better than prayers of a thousand months. Seekers of this night will be blessed manifold, whereby all of their sins will be erased as though they were reborn.

3. Tarawih prayers. Consisting of eight to twenty raka'ah, the Islamic units of prayer, these optional prayers are performed every night during Ramadhan. Tarawih prayers can be performed congregationally at the mosque or individually at home. At the mosque, the entire Holy Qur'an is recited for these prayers. The 114 chapters of the holy book have been conveniently divided into 30 equal sections, one for each night of Ramadhan.
Ramadhan is an opportunity for Muslims to cultivate a raised awareness of God the Almighty. It is a month of spiritual cleansing and reflection on past actions and a time for Muslims to think about their religious future. During this time, Muslims come together with a single objective: to serve God in accordance with His instructions and the practice of His messengers.

{Allah’s Messenger, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam, said: "Islam is built upon five: Testifying that none has the right to be worshipped except Allah and that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah, establishing the Prayer, giving the Zakaah, performing Hajj to the House, and fasting in Ramadhan."He sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam said:"There has come to you Ramadhan, a blessed month, in which Allah has made it obligatory to fast. During it the gates of Paradise are opened and the gates of Hellfire are closed, and the rebellious devils are chained. In it is a night (Laylatul-Qadr), which is better than a thousand months. He who is deprived of its good truly has been deprived." }

To all muslim friends out there, Selamat menyambut Ramadhan yang Mulia. Hopefully this Ramadhan will bring deepfull meanings and it is a time for inner reflection, devotion to God and self-control.

Bomb Threat

Today around 3pm, while I was checking my mail, there was an announcement made for the whole office building. When I heard the announcement I felt my stomach churning hard. There's a bomb threat called at my office and this was because of the date 9/11. Everybody started to grab their things such as handphone and wallet before we started leading our way to the exit staircase. Well guess what, i was at the 10th floor and I did not stop praying hopefully it's all a prank call. If the bomb threat was real, I am very sure the bomb will explode by the time I reach the 7th or 6th Floor.
I was so dissappointed coz all the staffs went down the stairs, taking their own sweet time without feeling scared of the situation occured. By the time I reached the ground floor and out of the building i felt so relief that everything was ok. We waited for about 1 and a half hour before the bomb squad announced that the building was save. What to do this is what we will facing in the future if we are working in a MNC company owned by foreigners. Just keep on praying and wish that all this incident will not happen in real.

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My first blog

Yes at last I have my own blog. This blog will be the only place for me to express my feelings whether it's sad, happy, angry, grumpy, tension and etc. I hope that I can find a true meaning of life, love, happiness without any hesitation. I am not a diary woman coz I've tried so many times writing a diary only that it will ended not even halfway and the diaries will be in the dustbin. Hahaha that's me.
So now I would like to try something new and this blog will be the witness of everything that happen through out of my life.